What's So New About New Year?

Assalamualaikum readers. Well it's going to be 2013. And so? Sorry but actually I never really care if it's new year or not. Because I know, new year is nothing. What's important is how you're deciding to make it through the whole year. So if you're asking whether I have any perspective about new year, I would honestly say no. But talking about my resolution, I think it's better for me to keep it all by myself. You wouldn't pay attention anyway.

Even I am shocked when I realized that I actually give a damn. Well, because I still feel the presence, that's why I did it. But oh wow, I was being humiliated. Obviously I never thought it would turn out this way. You know people, I should say that sometimes simplest things are the hardest ones. Nevermind. I'm so used to it anyway.

But you know how it exactly feels right? It feels so wrong. But pleasing. But being humiliated by a very simple action, what's the worse than this? They said, lay down my ego. And so I did it. But it ended up I was hurt by my own 'generosity'. Wouldn't it be good if I can be like people who are able to resist their own feelings. Who are able to make fun of their own stupidity. Who can actually laugh at their pain.

It's 31st of December 2012 and here I am, staring blankly at the screen, wiping this stupid, lame unavailing tears, like a little girl lost her favourite doll. Welcome, 2013.