It's not a new shocking news when I'm posting up to 3 posts per day. Don't even mind to know why I waste 2 hours in front of this laptop because I'm used to it. I just love writing and I know I can't wrote well. But since it's MY personal blog so let me finish my sentences in my own style OKAY?
That is just the prologue.
Sometimes, I still think why I'm studying in my current school. It's not that I can't apply KGV or any other schools out there. Mom had set the whole thing since I was in Standard 3 or 4 something. She said "Go to your brother and sisters' school". And I didn't enter the school completely because MY MOTHER TOLD ME TO DO SO. It's because of my willingness too.
Those peeps outside there keep on muttering how pious I should be when actually I'm not 100% perfect. I make mistakes. Mistakes are my companion. For almost 5 years I'm here, I learn so many things. Seems like I'm being protected. There's time when you're laughing and babbling with your classmates about how sweet and beautiful Bieber is. And the other time, you're conversing with your friends about your future life and how sinful we are throughout the days. And there's even the time when you'll be crying to hear that this world's heading to the end. I wonder if I can memorize any Hadith if I don't learn PSI and PQS.
Why should you moan about how tormented you are studying in a such decent school? Why should you moan about how ugly you are wearing those tudung? Take your time to look on the bright side, why are you here if you're not willing to do so? And why can't you spend your time to think that, maybe the reason you're here because, YOU NEED TO CHANGE.
Currently, I'm stepping away from any hard feelings that can ruin my day. Taking off those unimportant matters from my mind. I'm enjoying my senior year here as if I'll leave the school tomorrow. My seniority is not my priority but the happiness in it.
p/s : afraid of having insomnia.
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