It often happens. Everytime I feel like missing, as if a new soul will crawling under the very bottom of my veins, and soon to be discovered as a new person. Like hell no, how am I going to live my life like this? Sitting at home watching cats photographs and laughing as loud as I could. Yeah, I can act that way perfectly. Seriously I have no problem in making sure things happen just like the way I want it to be, because I'll be working for it. Craving for a sleep? I can just dive into my bed. Hate something? I'll avoid it and try not to waste any of my time thinking about it, or even care for it. I used to be that determined. Because I'd rather try before I start to moan about something.
But in this case, I lost the confidence that I possessed before. That I once loved. It is sure to not to blame the fate for everything. But accepting the fact that I have to go through my day, without my daily routine any more, it kills me. Things you used to do almost everyday, think about it everyday, how would you feel when they all stop so sudden? Just imagined, yesterday, you were over the moon about something, like the days before. And today, when you woke up, you realized that today is empty. So empty that you could even listen to your pulse. It's an awful feeling. And then, you'll realize that you no longer care of how you act, how you treat others. Just because you're too busy bothering about your missing routine.
And that happens every time the thoughts of them intrude my mind. I don't know how long will I have to live this way. Go missing someone as if they're the only living things in this world. I know, some people might find this as very annoying and irritating, some might say "Get a life, Loser!". That's why I'm working with it. I may not be just like a month ago, back to the day when they left me here. Not as 'meroyan' as that. Thank goodness, I managed to cope about this thing. But then, once the thought crosses your mind, that's it. You're doomed.
I'll wait for a month to make sure they read this.
Don't be too proud of this, losers.
Fine, I miss you guys. Happy now?
You've made me act like this. Shame on you!
Cepatlah balik woiii. Kalau korang kat tempat aku mesti lagi teruk merindu aku kan?
HAHA ok tak lawak =.=
But in this case, I lost the confidence that I possessed before. That I once loved. It is sure to not to blame the fate for everything. But accepting the fact that I have to go through my day, without my daily routine any more, it kills me. Things you used to do almost everyday, think about it everyday, how would you feel when they all stop so sudden? Just imagined, yesterday, you were over the moon about something, like the days before. And today, when you woke up, you realized that today is empty. So empty that you could even listen to your pulse. It's an awful feeling. And then, you'll realize that you no longer care of how you act, how you treat others. Just because you're too busy bothering about your missing routine.
And that happens every time the thoughts of them intrude my mind. I don't know how long will I have to live this way. Go missing someone as if they're the only living things in this world. I know, some people might find this as very annoying and irritating, some might say "Get a life, Loser!". That's why I'm working with it. I may not be just like a month ago, back to the day when they left me here. Not as 'meroyan' as that. Thank goodness, I managed to cope about this thing. But then, once the thought crosses your mind, that's it. You're doomed.
I'll wait for a month to make sure they read this.
Don't be too proud of this, losers.
Fine, I miss you guys. Happy now?
You've made me act like this. Shame on you!
Cepatlah balik woiii. Kalau korang kat tempat aku mesti lagi teruk merindu aku kan?
HAHA ok tak lawak =.=
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