The 190th Post

It's already the 190th post now. But I just realized something.
Am I being too happy in my new life? Or just trying to forget the past?
But believe me, I'm not the type of forget-it-quickly person.
And ouh yes, the first post that I posted for you ---> Post
Now this will be the second post.

I still remember how we met.
The first day you text me, disguising yourself as a person name "Kamal".
You are so silly! You think I'm stupid?
I easily know the real you. Thanks to your cousin. HAHA.

I still remember when we bumped onto each other at school.
I can still draw your sneer smiles, your glances and your laughs.
You're just being too sheepish. HAHA.

Since December 2009, we lost almost everything.
The stories, the laughs and the fights.
I still weep when I listen to Andra & The Backbone Sempurna.
I still can feel the day you confessed, the day you stopped, the day you begged,
the day you lied, the day I forgave you, the day we quarreled
and the day I walked away.
Yes, you can ask me all the dates. I'll be answering you.

And when you moved to another school, there's quite an empty space.
But you keep advising me to be strong and told me to be good to the person I love.
And you said, you'll remember everything and
you wouldn't throw the memories easily.

You! Yes you.
I don't know if you are reading my blog. And I don't know if I still cross your mind.
I don't even know what you are doing, how have you been and how is your life.
But I would really want you to know, I'm happy now. I'm living my life to the fullest.
Emy, Maie and Kiah. I'll take care of them and give them the best of me.
I'll achieve my dreams and I'll make them come true.
And I promise I'll be good to the one I love. I'm hoping he will do the same.

I miss the memories. And sometimes, I really miss it.
Thank you for being in my diary, once.

p/s : Waiting for the day when I can speak out the truth.
Why, how and what.