Sorry :(

when i read

when i listen

when i stare

the agony just won't let go.

and i still don't know what the hell am i doing.

the fake smiles,

the pseudo laughs,

the invisible tears,

and my life is tormented between

a hatred interaction and two broken souls.

this part is dying,

that part is living,

this part is revenging,

that part is forgiving,

this part is forgetting,

that part is remembering.

this part is leaving,

that part is chasing.

and my part? it's breaking.

ready to lend the hands, the advices, the ears.

and still, you can't realize that?

the willingness to help,

the sincerity to cheer,

the nodding to ease

still can't help you to get through your pain?

i'm here to help. but you're too stingy.

i'm here to cheer. but you're too phlegmatic.

i'm here to ease. but you're too miserly.

then the things remain unsolved,

towards the end, it's me that you're killing.

i never want to take part

i never want to interrupt.

i'm sorry if i'm breaking.

i'm sorry if i'm splitting.

i'm sorry if i'm destroying.

p/s : i'm so sorry...

-Me :) -